I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. — 2 Timothy 4:7
My brothers and sisters this morning I want you to read a letter I have written seeking an answer and wise counsel. I trust you will understand that you are not too big a person or a title holder to break and ask some very important questions.
Disappointment: Jesus, I Tried So Hard!
Jesus, I Need You:
I tried so hard to make it work, but I failed. This situation didn’t end the way that I had hoped and expected it would, and I am so disappointed. I feel let down and useless, because I didn’t get the results I had hoped.
I sought Your will, and I thought I knew what to do. I used great care moving forward toward the goal, and I stopped often to pray. In the stillness of the night, driving to and from work. Taking the quiet moment to consult you and I thought all was going well until I saw the opposite. Was it me or Your will playing out and I didn’t understand? I am left disappointed and I am asking You why?
When obstacles got in my way, I asked for Your guidance, and I waited patiently for You to answer me. I was diligent in my work, never giving up. And then, with the finish line in sight, everything came crashing down. All of my work was for nothing! My work stolen and I wondered why? Why this happened to me as I come to the end of my journey?
I am like the runner who has trained for a marathon. I ran fast and hard and then, just a few yards from the finish line, I fell. My own people tripped me to fall and though I am down Lord, I refused to give up because I know you more than many who are standing in my way.
Why, Jesus? Why did You allow me to work so hard and get so close just so I would fail? Did I really fail Lord, or am I walking in your will and you are ready to take me to another level? What have I done wrong to deserve this punishment?
I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. — 2 Timothy 4:7 All I am seeing in the crown of righteousness, I have already passed the light I saw in the tunnel. Lord I am at my final moment and I am depending on you.
Disappointment makes us ask, “Why didn’t I? Why didn’t God?”
Sometimes the Lord allows disappointment in order to build our faith. To strengthen our character and build us up in grace. Sometimes we wonder why things happened to us. Why people borrow things from us and never want to give back, they promise and when they see you they walk the other side. You may be disappointed but it is a test of your character and faith in the one you believed i. Earthly things will fail and pass away but I am introducing you to one that never fails.
The apostle Paul is an example. Few worked harder than he, but all his hard work landed him in prison. Paul’s disappointment strengthened his faith and drew him nearer to the Lord. When disappointment strikes, keep the faith. Remember — Jesus loves you!
Are you disappointed? Are you disappointed in God? Have life circumstances caused you to wonder if God even listened to your prayers, or if maybe He led you astray allowing your hopes and dreams to come to a screeching halt? Lean into His love for you today. Bring your worries, concerns, and even your disappointment and anger to Him. He isn’t surprised and He’s waiting to build you up and strengthen you.
Your servant and brother,
+ Sir Godfrey Gregg
Archbishop and Presiding Prelate
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